reflection

I have been working through lunch today, so I thought I would take a quick moment and do my blog today.

Been debating, I have been having some deep thoughts lately. Do I do it on motivation? Or should I be reflective on the year….hmmmm.

Reflection is it. 2005. I had a friend say, “That is so last year.” I have to say it was a year of change for me. 2004 brought new friends, new experiences, however this past year was a year of upheaval and at times I didn’t know if I was going to make it.

It started out like any other year. ha ha…actually I think I was sleeping because I had gone snowshoeing with Terry that day.

I was pretty involved with my Star Wars group, in fact, I had just become the CO-CR, that is vice president for the lay person.

It started out pretty good, it was about the end of April the beginning of May where things went south. Though I had just gotten back from one of the best vacations of my life, Celebration III. Imagine, 4 days of Star Wars 24/7. People from all over the globe. It was amazing.

So, I won’t get into everything that happened the next few months, but needless to say, everything I knew to be stable and steady was thrown out the door. Emotionally, physically and mentally.

I was looking at things this past weekend and really had to stop and thank God for His mercy and for His protection. Admittedly I have made some serious mistakes, some within the past couple of weeks. However, God’s mercy is so gracious…He has protected me, even at times from myself. He has put people into my life to really help guide me. I have spoken about this before, how almost complete strangers have come to me and told me things they had no idea about and really helped confirm the direction my life was going.

God is gracious and I thank Him everyday for bringing me through the, well hell of last year. Granted it has strengthen my relationship with Him and with some dear friends. However, one would think there could be an easier way. Ha ha ha

I guess the point to this blog is that God is gracious and regardless of what is going on. His will is what we need to seek. I believe that He will bring people and show us where He wants us to be. Even though we might choose differently. Trust me, I would be choosing differently. I would choose the ‘Easy’ Button. Like in the Staples commercials.

I just hate waiting. I was talking to Deborah yesterday, I said, well this isn’t in my hands anymore…and I was reminded of something she said to me. “Was ever really IN your hands?”