Tuesday, December 13, 2005

God's character

Good Tuesday!

I thought I would actually do my blog on the day that I have planned for it and that would be today.

I had a GREAT and long overdue conversation with a dear friend from college. We talked for a good hour and a half. I find it interesting that, friends you have had for years though you haven’t spoken in a long time, it is just like you talked to them yesterday.

I want to share a bit of what I shared with them. I am reading two books. One is a deeply spiritual book entitled Captivating, by John & Staci Eldredge. Captivating is a book about ‘The Mystery of a Woman’s Soul’. Before you laugh, honestly, most of you know me. I am not one for ‘spiritual books’ however, I have to tell you, this book has really spoken to me. I want to quote a bit of the second chapter.

…"'You will find me,” says the Lord, ‘when you seek me with all your heart.’ (Jer. 29:31). In other words, ‘Look for me, pursue me—I want you to pursue me…'God waits to be wanted.’

Can there be any doubt that God wants to be sought after? The first and greatest of all commands is to love him (Mark 12:29-30, Mat. 22:36-38). He wants us to love him. To seek him with all our hearts. A woman longs to be sought after, too, with the whole heart of her pursuer. God longs to be desired. Just as woman long to be desired. This is not some weakness or insecurity on the part of the woman, that deep yearning to be desired. Remember the story of Martha and Mary? Mary chose God, and Jesus said that that is what he wanted.


I know that is a lot to read, and there is a TON more, the point is. God longs to be loved, that is part of his character and in turn God has put that character in us, particularly us ladies. It is part of who HE is and that I shouldn’t feel ashamed or feel insecure for that. Now, that is not to say that there needs to be a balance, yearning verses co-dependency, etc, etc.

The second book I picked up as sort of a joke. My roommate told me a couple months ago that I needed to read it. It is NOT a spiritual book in the least. However, it has some good points and just made me come to some realizations about myself and those in my life.

I have a quote that I feel goes a long with the quote from Captivating.

“If..you’re spending a lot of energy trying to change yourself into something you think will make someone happier, then divorce yourself from that and move on. Don’t let someone make you feel stupid about wanting to be loved.

I found that to be probably some of the ‘best’ advice I have heard in a long time.

Why would you put yourself in a situation that makes you feel like less of a person or makes you feel worthless? Your feelings are valid. If someone makes you feel that they aren't then that is not right. Honestly, I don’t think that God wants us to be doormats or people who think that we are worthless.

He created us for HIS glory and for relationships that glorify Him. How is belittling yourself honoring God? God has really been speaking to me these past couple of weeks. Sure, it is a ‘crappy’ time of year and most of you know I really can not stand the whole holiday scene.

Please do not get me wrong. I am grateful that Christ came and recognize the significance of that. It is when I realize that I don’t have a family to spend time with is when it really starts to bother me. However, God created me with a purpose. He knew me before I was even born. I need to hold true to His promises and that He has purpose in everything. He created me as a woman, with His character and the need for uplifting relationships and that isn’t something to be ashamed of.