my will verses God's will
It is Tuesday morning. On Tuesdays I am stuck in the chapel here at work, running the sound and video system. I can’t really do any work back here, so I either shop on eBay or post to the Star Wars board…actually both.
So, today’s blog is about my will verses God’s will. I think that we both know who is going to win. However, getting to the end result is a struggle. I think God is really teaching me what it means to have my heart be His heart and my will to be His will. Ok, I didn’t want it to be HARD for that to happen. I just thought it was be this gradual change of heart. Not so much.
It has been a hard struggle. As some of you know I tend to be on the emotional side. Shocking! I tend to react out of that. There was a situation that I had been praying about and I asked God for His guidance. I had ‘come to a conclusion’. So, I had this plan ready to execute and was all set to go. I said to a friend of mine. Unless, something changes between now and this time I am going to do this. Can I say…be careful what you pray for?
Yesterday morning I was driving to work and I really felt the Spirit saying…Hey Sarah, I don’t need your help, so don’t do anything.
Do you know what that is like to sit back and do NOTHING? It is tearing me apart. Yesterday, I was driving home and I was like this would be easier if I were to do this and this, this makes NO sense. The verse in Psalm 46 ,"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Dang it. I don’t want to ‘be still’. Blah!
Basically, God is really stretching me and it hurts, it is hard, it is a growing pains of sort. My friend Deborah said. “...I HATE seeing my sin clearly (even if its just a tiny piece of it).” Isn’t that the truth?
I am so grateful that God loves me enough to care and that He IS answering my prayers that my will become His will and that my heart would become His heart. It is encouraging to actually see the Lord working in my life.
So, today’s blog is about my will verses God’s will. I think that we both know who is going to win. However, getting to the end result is a struggle. I think God is really teaching me what it means to have my heart be His heart and my will to be His will. Ok, I didn’t want it to be HARD for that to happen. I just thought it was be this gradual change of heart. Not so much.
It has been a hard struggle. As some of you know I tend to be on the emotional side. Shocking! I tend to react out of that. There was a situation that I had been praying about and I asked God for His guidance. I had ‘come to a conclusion’. So, I had this plan ready to execute and was all set to go. I said to a friend of mine. Unless, something changes between now and this time I am going to do this. Can I say…be careful what you pray for?
Yesterday morning I was driving to work and I really felt the Spirit saying…Hey Sarah, I don’t need your help, so don’t do anything.
Do you know what that is like to sit back and do NOTHING? It is tearing me apart. Yesterday, I was driving home and I was like this would be easier if I were to do this and this, this makes NO sense. The verse in Psalm 46 ,"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Dang it. I don’t want to ‘be still’. Blah!
Basically, God is really stretching me and it hurts, it is hard, it is a growing pains of sort. My friend Deborah said. “...I HATE seeing my sin clearly (even if its just a tiny piece of it).” Isn’t that the truth?
I am so grateful that God loves me enough to care and that He IS answering my prayers that my will become His will and that my heart would become His heart. It is encouraging to actually see the Lord working in my life.
posted by mel at 10:15 AM
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