do what you are told!

Today is Tuesday so I better get cracking on the blog.

Well….it has been an interesting week. Last week we did the DVD release…which I will be posting some pictures. I have a new costume as you can see.

I am going back and forth a lot lately. I guess that goes with trust and not trusting. I had a good talk with a friend last week about what God was doing in my life. (playing catch-up) and they say to me. God is trying to get you to trust Him. I was like HAVE you been reading my blog?

It was really a confirmation of..Melody, you are were you need to be. It just drives me nuts.

So Sunday, I was out doing some thrifting, which I am the queen of, amongst other things. Found a really nice jacket type item. ANYWHO…I looked over and there was a family sitting in this SUV..nothing to out of the ordinary. I just started looking at my life and where God had me…and it was like, you know, I know that You have everything under control, but I don’t like being here. I feel as if I am ‘waiting’ for the next stage of my life.

A lot has happened this past year and some of you know and most of you don’t. Just been a struggle and learning to accept things that I have no control over. Things that I feel that should have had a different outcome, why did this have to happen and why did that have to happen?

I think it is the same old same old with me. Do I trust God? Yes, yes I do…or I would have lost it quite awhile ago. It is like I said in an email to a friend of mine yesterday. “You know…I love God…and I know that He has everything under control…but man oh man. I do feel like Sarah….the end seems bleak, but you know that it is there, yet at the same time…it is like GOD HOW IN THE WORLD ARE YOU GOING TO BRING THINGS TO PART?”

Well…I guess the only answer it is in HIS time and when things DO come to part…that it will be of HIS doing and not your own. How encouraging is that? How much does God love us that He loves us despite of ourselves?

I am seeing my sin more and more everyday…how I want to be in control…yet, I am not in control. If I believe that God is the Lord of my life…than it isn’t mine anymore, nor is it yours.

Trust me, there are things I have been doing lately, that if I had my choice, I would be running the other way. You have to do what God tells you, even it is isn't the easy choice.